babblings...
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
happy = smiles and laughters ? not necessary so.
you see ppl smiling away, laughing their hearts out on the streets. you envy them. envy their carefree, happy state of
mind. wish you could be like them too. but tink again, how sure are you that they're really happy? carefree? no worries at all? you cant judge based on the surface alone.
most of the time, the equation is balanced. yes, happy = smiles and laughters. but sadly, at times its not. smiling and laughing not necessary means we're feeling happy. at certain times in life, we had our sorrows, tears tat we didnt want to show. so we keep them all to ourselves. didnt really want to reveal our true feelings to others, tat we're sad or down, thus we put on false expressions. is tat ok? maybe yes, maybe no. yes, cos it's our own business, we should jux handle it ourselves. no help needed. selfish? we jux dun wan ppl to worry bout us. no, cos it's always gd to share ur burden with someone else. it'll be lighter in tat case. keeping things to ourselves might not help at times, might even make things worse. let's not say we are asking frens to bear some of our burdens, but say : "frens are there to share and care, to lend a helping hand. they're ppl who walk side by side wth us." yep. it's true. so why not let known our feelings to our gd frens or confidants, and halfed our burdens? try doin so, we'll be a happier soul.
behind ur smile, i know there are sorrows.
behind ur laughter, i konw there are tears.
but i want u to know tat behind u is always me who'll always care.
*promise!* *huggies*
life isnt perfect...
Monday, March 29, 2004
perfection. sth nice but hard to come by. we're living in a realistic world whereby perfection almost doesnt exist. maybe it do, but we're always asking for more, we tend to miss it. whether sth is perfect or not, it all comes down to our mind, how we see or portray it to be. if we tink it's perfect, it will be. if we tink otherwise, then too bad. many of us strive to be perfect, in many sense. we wan to look perfect, dress perfect, wan perfection in everything we do. are we asking for too much? i tink maybe yes...striving for perfection isnt a bad thing, but not when we overdone it.
perfectionists.
we have dozens of them arnd us. ppl who strives to make sure everything is perfect for them. at times, im one too.
*grinz* actually, everyone of us is guilty of being one sometimes. we tend to be so engrossed in things or matters such as projects, wanted the best, wanted to score well. thus, we ask for perfection in the things we do. hmm...it's doesnt sounds like a bad thing yeah? dont u wan to score? but then again, it's wise not to overdo things, jux keep it within a limit.
perfectionists do fail at times, but they keep on striving...to make things perfect once again.
in life, we win some, lose some. no bargains, no complaints should be heard.
no one would love to lose in tis world, all of us wanted the taste of victory.
no doubt tat losing is part of our growing-up process, but still...we hate too lose out. why? cos of our pride, we didnt wana lose face. singaporeans...at the end of the day, we should all realise tat losing isnt only bout losing face or pride, it's bout us realising our own weaknesses and mistakes. thru failures we learnt. there's a lesson to be learnt for every battle lost.
so brace urself, be like a warrior and move on.
life's like tat...
Friday, March 26, 2004
life is full of ups and downs. u maybe standing at the peak, savouring the wonderful scenery up there tis moment and down in the valley crying over ur failure the next moment. so tis is life, unpredictable. some ppl describes life as a rollar coaster ride. where it's jux merely the peak before u fall, straight to the bottom, and along the scary process, u encounter numerous twists and turns. horrible feeling yeah? yet, these rides are unavoidable in life. or maybe without them, life would seem meaningless. many hate it, but why not we try first to look at it from a positive angle of view? the rollar coaster ride maybe scary, but it's certainly exciting and challenging. life should be full of challenges and excitement isnt it? if u prefer a boring world, whereby there's minimal changes or challenges, then go for those kiddy rides such as the ultraman merry-go-rounds. you can jux sit there, predict almost everything tats coming up the next moment, enjoy the wind and the same scenery over and over again. tat to me is total boredom, cos u're going round in circles, revolving round the same spot. to sound simple, u're not goin anywhere, not making any improvements at all.
a balanced life is having tasted both the peak and trough in life.
many ppl choose to give it all up after the fall, they choose to stay put, and deemed tat it's impossible to climb up to the peak once more. but they're wrong, very wrong. in life you dun get to enjoy always, there are times whereby you really need to work hard for sth u want. nothing is free in tis world rem? when you're at the bottom, work hard to get to the top. you may slip and fall at times, but dun ever tink of raising the white flag. persevere and move on. you'll get there in no time.
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
in life, we dun and cant survive alone. everyone of us represents a small piece of land, of which we all come together to become a little island. likewise, we need friends and helping hands to guide us along our life's journey, through all hardships and joy. dun ever underestimate the power of giving and sharing, for they're the super glue tat holds all the small pieces of land together, forever. friends are parts and parcels of life, they bring on smiles and laughters, and most importantly, they add rainbows to our lives.
You Raise Me Up
by Josh Groban
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
Sunday, March 21, 2004
ok, tat's it. i've had enough. human nature sucks big time. ugliest side of human nature and the most cruel side of reality, i've seen it all together. all on tonite, live telecast from east coast. jux where is the compassion tat we humans are supposed to have? i cant see it anywhere, wat i see is only selfishness. ppl thinking only for themselves.
nothing seems quite right todae...
i attended a wedding dinner todae, and to my regret, it's actually a
big big mistake right from the very start. first, my dad was kinda held up at work and came home late to bring us to the restaurant. so as a result, we were abit late when we finally arrived at the restaurant at 7.45pm. my auntie was abit unhappy bout it and my other relatives starts to question us on our lateness. im ok with tat, but wtf, they keep on saying it's the kids fault. ok now i understand, adults always assume tat kids are the culprits for everything, and they are always right. wat fucking theory is tat manz...
*fuming* so sat down at the table, keep quiet (except when i tok to my uncle - the only one i enjoy toking to...) and waited for the dinner to start. then bad news came flooding in, they said tat the dinner would be delayed till
8.45pm. i was like,
OMG! wth caused the delay?! my stomach was beating drums already and they're telling me it has to be delayed!
*argh* wat luck?! 8.45pm, finally food started to stream out of the kitchen. to my utmost disappointment, most of the food sucks in my opinion. the fish tasted so sour, as if they pour the entire bottle of lime over it. and then there was the prawn, which had so much tartar sauce on it tat it tasted almost like mac's fish fillet!
*bleah* throughout the dinner, only the red wine and vege was enjoyable. other than tat, none.
lost my wallet, cried like hell. no offers to console but lots of ill comments to make things worse.
after dinner, as we were about to head home, my bro said tat he lost my wallet.
i was so stunned tat i stood still for a few moments. we went arnd to search for my precious wallet, but all to no avail. i cried, yes i really cried. i cried hard, real hard. there's so much contents in my wallet, i dun wana lose them all. i had all my bank cards, visa/master cards, my identity card, student pass and all sorts of cards inside it. losing all these is not so bad, but losing the photos i had in my wallet is. cards can be replaced, but photos cant. they contained memories, moments tat i couldnt bring back, moments tat i couldnt retake again.
they're very important to me.
heaven made a fool out of me, but gave me the chance to witness the ugly sides of human nature. so, even ur closest can turn their backs on you.
while i was crying and worrying for my wallet, my parents started to mumble tis and tat to me non-stop.
*shut up!* and my idiotic bro, actually came up wit fancy stories to tell my dad in order to clear his name from the situation.
wtf lah, im worried and sad enough, u all tiam tiam can? my dad reprimanded me cos of tis and threatened to cut my allowances. bloody hell, isnt it making things worse for me? cant he show me some sympathy? then as i was slowly resigning to my fate, calling all the banks to stop the use of my cards, my bro took out my wallet from his inner pocket.
*glowing eyes* i violently took over the control of my wallet and started to give him hell. i was really pissed off by his stupid behavior...bloody pissed...wat an asshole! had my wallet in pockets all along, said it was lost and even blamed me for it.
*hot* idiotic bro...
when things goes wrong,
dun fret my dear fren,
instead, try to think of ways to set it right.
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
from young we were taught to pursue our own happiness in life. jux wat is the happiness tat we all pursue? or maybe were asked to pursue? is it sumthing tangible? sumthing we can see with our naked eyes? or is it sum kind of feelings tat can only be understood deep down? in my dictionary, happiness is sumthing tat i portrayed as
"so far yet so near" . yep. u cant see it coming, but when it's here, u cant resist it at all. sounds weird yet logical...well, tis is life...
i believe firmly tat happiness is self-made, for it isnt sumthing FOC though to some ppl, it seems to be so. tat's mainly bcos they take everything for granted and i can tell u, when the sad day comes, they'll suffer from nervous breakdown! i can bet on tat.
(sounds abit unfriendly yeah...no offence...) to me, whether we could find our happiness depends solely on ourselves. our mindsets and way of thinking helps each of us to portray the different definitions of happiness. let's jux say tis, if one is easily contented, finding happiness might jux be an easy task. for ppl with such easily contented hearts, happiness always seems to be near. it's a gd way of living life isnt it? on the other hand, if one has a heart tat wun stop asking for more, then things will be practically the opposite. for these souls, happiness will always be a dream, cos they practise
"materialisticism" . they'll neva understand the real meaning of
"being contented", for how can u be contented when all u wan is more? when the heart neva stop asking, happiness will neva set in.
if i had the chance to hold u tight once more,
i wouldnt be tat careless again to let u go.
life...
Sunday, March 14, 2004
Life's a pretty long journey down the road. you shouldnt drive too fast, nor too slow. always remember to look at the road ahead, but dont forget to take notice of the surroundings around you too. and occasionally, do look into your rear view mirror to once again see what kind of terrain you have been through. maybe once in a while you should pick up a stranger or two, but always be careful about who.
a nice poem about life, saw it on net...
There's a highway for joy and a highway for
Sorrow A road for today and a road for tomorrow
So choose your path wisely and walk it with care
If you follow your heart, you'll find your way there
I've been to the garden and planted seeds there
I've been to the desert and felt the despair
I've swam in the ocean and drank of it's wine
I climbed up the mountain to touch the sky
I went to the canyon and started to cry
I've traveled both highways, both today
And tomorrow I've basked in the joy
And wallowed in sorrow
My Path has been chosen and
I've walked it with care I followed
My heart and I'm on my way there
So I'll just keep walking till I find what
I'm after To mountains and oceans and
Gardens of laughter
Author Unknown
exams are next on the menu!
Saturday, March 13, 2004
exams are near and its affecting my brain and mood. i've been having
mood swings and my brain doesnt seems to function properly . it
seems like the exam pressure is on me again.
*sigh*
tolerance is the oil which takes frictions out of life
argh..i hate mood swings. everytime it happens, it jux seems spoil the whole evening's mood
*wth*. and it adds somemore guilt to my conscience. whenever it happens, my mood jux went
*kaboom!!!* crashing onto the ground. no reasons, no explainations, it jux happens. and then i would start to lose my patient, my coolness and get easily irritated by the slightest things. and pls dun try to be funny with me at tat crucial moment, cos i'll definitely wouldnt give a damn who u are, jux voiced out all my unhappiness and start scolding ppl like a mad dog. and if some idiots tries to fool arnd with me, i'll kick their butty and make them run for their lives like a dog they are. haha...
hmm..sounds scary?
*lolx* dun worry guys, im learning and trying my best to curb tis stupid mood swing thingy. and i promise i wun start hurling languages unless ppl push me up the wall. and warning! when tat happens, it's gonna be hell! but i dun tink things will end up so serious for me, cos i'll always try to practise the magnificent word
"tolerance". i noe my temper hasnt been tat gd recently, must be due to those stupid swings.
*argh!* im really sorry for tat, for all those ppl whom i might have hurt accidentally with my senseless actions or words. i didnt mean it. im sorry. from todae onwards, i will change, for the better of course! i promise...
Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
--Ralph Waldo Emerson
our journey...
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
u cant compare jux everything in life
it's real stupidity to try and determine ur worth jux by comparing urself with others. though tat's wat most of us always do. each and every one of us are unique, yes we're special. but u noe wat? most of us tend to set our goals not by wat we sees as important, but wat other ppl deem important. isnt is a foolish thing to do? when ur goals doesnt really matters to other ppl out there. to make it sound simply, wat goals we set is our own business. ok, so the thing is we humans jux cant resist comparing between ourselves. sounds stupid yet logically? it seems to be... so an advice to all my dear frens outta there, set ur goals accordingly, to ur own opinions, dreams or watever, and not according to wat other people deem important. for only u noe wat's best for u.
Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way
through life's journey, we experienced countless ups and downs, encountered numerous obstacles, met new faces, heard songs of different tunes. one rule we must observed along our way: do not take for granted the things arnd u, especially those close to ur heart. for every new obstacle we encounter, there's always an old face cheering us on from behind. we may not noe, or even see, for it's a feeling from within.
take them along to whereva ur life's journey takes u to, for without them, life would be meaningless.
at some points in life, we act like stubborn creatures, strongly against the idea of moving on, and yet painstakingly trying to stop the time from ticking away. how cliche...yet very true. we always allow ourselves to stay in the memories of yester, but why are we doin tis for? for someone we love? why do we still try to find ways to stop the earth from revolving when no matter wat, tis ball will still continue its operations? the fact is tat we're allowing our lives to slip thru our fingers by living in the past nor for the future. learn to live a happier live by living life one day at a time, tis way we'll live all the days in our lives.
beside the clear waters where the waves broke, i drew a pic of u and ur heart in the sand. but then the waves went higher tis time, destroying everything and i realised u were no longer there.
treasure what you have before they're gone...
Friday, March 05, 2004
i wanted to help so much, yet there's nth i could do to help. i didnt want u to leave my side, yet i couldnt find a way to stop u from leaving.
was watching a channel 8 drama juz now when
*opps!* i shed a tear (erm..maybe a little more than tat..). a rare scenario for me, but the scene was real touching so i really cant help it yeah. juz imagine, ur loved one on his/her deathbed, yet u could do nth about it...it hurts, real lot.
we're constantly reminded to cherish wat we have in our lives. like the saying:
"cherish ur loved ones before they're gone, before everything's a little too late." but how many of us actually heed tat? do u? perhaps we're too engrossed in spending all our time trying to get hold of wat we dun have, and in the process we tend to leave the idea of spending a little of our time to appreciate wat we already have(whether its ppl or watever) behind. sad thing isnt it?
u cannot always have wat u want,
but for wat u have, be thankful for tat.
many of us choose to turn a blind eye on wats right in front of us, yet opening our eyes wide to see those distance pictures. ridiculous? maybe yes, but tat's us humans. we always focus on wat's lacking, rather than to be thankful for wat's not. it's human nature i guess. we always fail to appreciate those little things in life. we always do.
so i suggest all of us take a rest from our hectic lives, we'll come to realise the beauty of our surroundings. and maybe, we'll get to realise oso tat there's actually someone out there who's willing to stand by us always. take time off to appreciate those little things in life, we'll become a happier person. and perhaps we should oso learn to take things in our stride, be gd and follow the nature's course. if it's meant to be yours, it will be. if it's not, then too bad. there's nth to be sad about, right?
without u in my life, my picture wouldnt be complete.
kind souls, rare souls
Thursday, March 04, 2004
people used to tell me tis :
"in our cold and calculating society, ppl are living for their own sake only." yep, they mean selfish thinking, ppl minding their own business only, ppl caring for no one except themselves. the word kindness may not even appear in their dictionary. maybe most of us (yes, including me oso.) dun give the nod to tat cold statement. but, tink again guys. maybe it's not all the truth, but guess there's some part we cant deny also. we singaporeans live in a competitive society, where we're supposed to tink like a fox sumtimes and yet behave like a graceful swan all the time. maybe we're used to seeing selfish acts (excecuting some ourselves at times), kindness on the other hand seems alien now. for those selfish lads, self-defence is their biggest excuse.
(i admit tat i've done tat before, im a human after all ritez? and im sorry for tat.) though ppl are so used to keeping useful info or tips to themselves, though most ppl would save the best for themselves and then leave the rest for others, though it's very common for ppl to think for themselves first, but kindness definitely do exist. tat's sumthing i strongly believe in. people with kind hearts, big hearts do exist in tis world. oh well...
kind souls, rare souls.
maybe all of us are too engrossed in our daily routines, we tend to forget those little things in life. little acts of kindness, which brings warmth, or even smiles to those who benefited from it. it takes jux a little extra effort on our behalf to make a difference on some others' lives. so why not?
if someone is worth the extra mile, then go the extra mile for them. dun tink or reconsider, juz go, juz do it. haha...sounds like Nike commercial ah...haha..
u dun go out and perform acts of kindness on purpose, kindness is from within. it's similar to human nature, it jux got out of u without u knowing, naturally. kindness is sumthing great, it makes a difference to the receivers, as well as to those who gives. its a win-win situation which benefits both ways. actually, we do haf alot of kind souls arnd us, if only we take the efforts to identify them. but say again, these ppl mostly prefer to keep a low profile yeah?
kind souls, rare souls, shy souls? how cliche...haha...
(ps: this blog entry is a tribute to the kind lady who offered to walk me to my block when it's raining cats and dogs juz now. if not for her, i guess i would have been totally drenched in the rain. thousand thanks to the lady for the extra mile she haf went, and for the fact tat she lives in the opposite direction of me, tat means it's not even on her way! and im not the only one benefited from her kindness, she wallked a primary school gerl back to her block too!you're such a kind soul, and u definitely made my day!)
updates
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
hi people, im back here to blog and update bits and pieces of my life again. ok, went k box to sing jux now with bro kenneth and joanne. it was fun, we were behaving like idiots in the room and sang so loudly as if we were holding a concert of our own! (is tat the way mental patients behave?) aniwae, i sang sooo much and loud tat my throat is threatening to go on strike now.
*wth* oh well, neva mind bout tat. i enjoyed myself todae and tat's enuff. haha..and guess wat, i might be goin to k box again on tis coming friday! yuppee!cheers! another concert again! so people, feel free to drop by my concert and tickets are available at all sistics outlets! pls grab them early to avoid disappointment! wahaha...tis is getting abit out of hand! my screws are getting loose! someone help pls! tighten them for me pls! wahaha...tis is wat i call
"extreme craziness" haha...
Westlife - What makes a man
This isn't goodbye, even as I watch you leave, this isn't goodbye
I swear I won't cry, even as tears fill my eyes, I swear I won't cry
Any other girl, I'd let you walk away
Any other girl, I'm sure I'd be ok
Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know
So I can get over you
What makes her so right?
Is it the sound of her laugh?
That look in her eyes
When do you decide?
She is the dream that you seek
That force in your life
When you apologise, no matter who was wrong
When you get on your knees if that would bring her home
Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know
So that I can get over you
Other girls will come along, they always do
But what's the point when all I ever want is you, tell me
Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know....
Girl you gotta let me know....
So I can get over you
