holiday mood...
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
i got my semestral exams results back this morning. well, i should say sort of. cos i only gotta knew whether i had passed my modules and whether i have any distinctions to my name. surprise! surprise! i've got a distinction! -smiles- and i managed to pass all my other modules too! even the most-headache ECONOMICS!
-phew-
zhutou is feeling damn happy now! quite i tink.
oh ya, i'll be going to genting fer a short holiday with my frens from 30th may to 2nd june i tink. its already been confirmed and we'll set off for genting on tis sunday at 9pm sharp from somewhere near bugis i tink. my company will includes chuen wei jie, wicky and blah blah. it's a 3days 2nite trip but then i dun tink we'll be spending the whole 3days at genting lah. gonna plan for a small trip to KL or sth.
-winks- looking forward to tis trip, and i'll make sure tat i PLAY HARD, EAT ALOT and BUY ALOT when im there! you sure can bet on tat yeah!
-lol-
it's just the beginning it's not the end
but i really don't know how long can i stand.
usual preachings...
Saturday, May 22, 2004
nothing is more important when your presence means the world to me.
when pple arnd you are feeling down and out, they dun need you to shower them with presents or gifts. they jux need you to be there. really, jux ur presence is enough.
but sometimes, they need more than ur presence. they need you to stay by their side, neva even leave for a moment. to hear out wat's in their mind, yet be very slow and wise in giving comments. to put it across simply, they need you to be a good listener when they pour their hearts out to you.
Being there for someone need not necessary mean having
to say alot. Words are sometimes redundant. Remember
that 'presence' (to be there for someone) is more than
enough.
life's full of ups and downs, tats the way god makes it. you can neva change tat theory of his almighty. but, you can change tat attitude of yours to suit the different situations you're facing, tis will make you feel better though. sometimes when you're at a down point of ur life, you feel like as if its the end of the world. its not true really. think again, the ups and downs in life works jux like a cycle. there'll be a UP, then follows strictly by a DOWN. so if when there's no DOWN point at all, there wun be any UP points too. understand? you cant have the best of two worlds usually. in life, you gotta have a taste of both sides. and tats wat makes you a complete person.
God didn't promise days without pain,
laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but,
He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the
tears, and light for the way.
urgh...
Thursday, May 20, 2004
had a bad day, but maybe not so bad after all.
my lucky stars were not shining on me today, instead i've got a cluster of dark clouds above my head the whole noon. wth. the feeling sure sucks big time. really. i've got bad things happening right from the moment i woke up from sleep. ok, these were the bad events tat happened to me tis noon, shall not wrote in detail though.
1) woke up late! bloody hp's alarm clock not loud enuff to wake me up!
2) had to rush thru my lunch cos of tat. nearly choked to myself death ok! wth!
3) had a quick shower and dressed up fast enuff. i thought i'll be on time, but then sth bad happened again! i broke my beloved perfume bottle! argh...
4) getting impatient already, and bloody hell i got cut by the broken pieces! ok, im getting real fed up now!
5) finally got over the broken bottle, and i realised i've lost my ring! ok, tis is the limit i tell you. im hopping mad now!
see! tat's how bad my day was. sigh.
-sulks-
anyway, finally met up with my frens
(kangming, charlene and janice) at 2.20pm. omg! i was like half hour late! sorry guys...didnt meant it really! started the ktv session at 2.39pm sharp. it was great fun man! i was behaving like some siao ding dong inside the room, throwing cusions at pple like nobody's business. haha. im mad. no, im reaching insanity. hah.
time flies and soon it was 5pm! got a call from shiqi jie and she says she'll be coming over rite now. -smiles- happily thought tat she'll be reaching the ktv at chinatown very soon, but then i received a call from her some 20minutes later saying tat the mrt was down! wth! wats wrong with SMART?!?! cant you guys choose beta time to break down? why must you choose today and at tat particular time? u idiotic arse! we're paying soo bloody much for the train fares and tis is wat you do to me! you
#@*&!^#%&^*&$#@$^*%&#^*!!!
my dear shiqi da jie finally managed to reach the ktv at 7pm. -sian half- our session were to end at 7.40pm sia. only 40minutes left for her to sing.
-sulks yet again- nevertheless, im happy to see her arnd jux in time for a song or two.
-winks- i was so so hungry after the ktv session!
-stomach grumbles- so were the others! must be bcos we sang too much! haha! but charlene and janice went home first. so, me kangming and shiqi jie went to the place in chinatown whereby the stalls are set up by the roadside for our dinner. tink its call the
"da pai dang" or sth similar. anyway, me and kangming ordered lotsa food! we've got stingyray, sambal kang kong, wanton soup and ngor hiang (various fried stuffs usually eaten with fried beehoon)! and three cups of lime juice! haha! it's only three of us you know?! we're PIGS in our yester lives! oink!oink!oink!
-lolx-
finally after much thinking, i get it. my sisters and brothers are all weird beings. im a weirdo too!
-lolx- they dun like to get treats from pple yeah? shiqi keep on pushing money onto my hands when i wanted to give her a treat for her long-ago-belated birthday. sigh. she sure wins. hmm...maybe not. tink i won in the end. hah.
met up with pearlyn, brother and wingyan after tat at punggol park's cafe. ate again and tok quite abit before heading home finally at midnight.
conclusion: today was damn fun! and i enjoyed myself really! my jie said she likes the present i bought for her! haha! goodgood! tis shows i've got good taste! haha. shall sign off now, im tired already!
-yawnz-
my mood
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
hmm...i seems to be uninterested in anything and everything i do nowadays. or rather i have no mood for anything. cant find any logical explainations to my weird behavior. if anyone of you know the reason why, kindly come forward and tell me pls...
:(
i've got no more drive to excel. no motivation. perhaps no goals in life also. now i feel as if im an aimless soul, floating about from place to place with absolutely no idea where and wat i am doing. sobz.
i dunno wth im doing or toking nowadays...
im lost.
:( :( :(
And I thought...
there is something you should know
I could never let you go
because i miss you so
Baby when the time is right
together we will fight
To get you in my life
usual babblings...
Sunday, May 16, 2004
if i aint got you, i wouldnt stand strong and steady for tat long.
The Reason
by HOOBASTANK
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
if there's any reason for me to be strong, it'll be you.
in some mood...
Saturday, May 15, 2004
dun portray me to be so strong, for the fact is tat im not.
i'm not a super woman or anything near. im jux a normal being jux like everyone of you out there, i've got my feelings too. i can understand and withstand some of those disppointments tat i chance upon in my life. but i cant withstand all of them, for you see, i've got no supernatural powers in me. im sure you cant do tat too. i admit im stubborn at times, and i noe tat tat sometimes is the cause of disppointments itself. but like i've jux said, im no different from anyone of you really. like you guys, im fragile when it comes to certain matters or issues. im no robot, i can break down too.
promises does hurt at times
promises are meant to be beautiful words. but then again, in tis mean society tat we live in, most promises are meant to hurt. sad case i know, but it's a cruel truth. there's certainly no denial to it. let's say, how many of you out there actually managed to keep ur every promise true? well, not many. sometimes i broke my promises to others too, and i felt really guilty for tat. but even God makes mistakes at times, so i tink i can be forgiven. hah.
so wats the point now? we make promises to bring on others' smiles or to give assurance, but then we sometimes broke them all and brought on their tears amd disappointments instead. sounds abit irony i know. to me, i hate to be disppointed but yet i cant deny the fact tat i have disappointed other pple in my life too. anyway, i hurt disappointments. really.
i hate them. i want none of them in my life.
dun make any promises if you dun intend to keep them safe. dun say words tat'll please others if you dun habour the thoughts of honouring them in the end.
holidays are here again!
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
jux came back from my poly class chalet at costa sands pasir ris organised by my three poly brothers
(kang ming, addy, weiliang) ,with weiliang being the main organiser. well, thousand thanks to them cos all of us who went definitely enjoyed ourselves during the chalet stay. and special thanks to weiliang cos he was the one who booked the chalet for us.
-salutes you-
event: dba 1a24 chalet gathering
participants:weiliang,jiafang,sheryl,me,charlene,wenhua,kangming,addy and cecilia*
photographer: jiafang & addy
hmm...i went to the chalet along with sis charlene and wenhua only on the 2nd day, which is yesterday. reached the place rather late, some time arnd evening and by then, weiliang and company were already halfway thru with the bbq fire. we settled ourselves down and started the bbq session soon after.
-slurp!slurp!- btw, for those who wished to noe, there were 8 of us there and the food we had for bbq could actually feed 10 odds pple.
-eyes wide- we had 4kg of wings, lots of hotdogs and crabsticks and dozens of satay sticks!
-woohoo- (oh my dino, you should have come and take a look at the feast we had!) but still, we somehow managed to finish almost all food, except for maybe 1kg of wings. we're great eaters!!! haha...
had lots of fun bbqing and taking candid shots!
-snap!snap!- and i tink we used up nearly all 3 films addy had brought to the chalet. and mind you, one film is equal to 36 shots ok!
-lolx- and our dear weiliang, he was doing some high pitch singing while bbqing and our neighbours were all staring at us! soo paiseh u noe! and everytime he does tat, our neighbours would turn on their radio super loud! haha...not a bad thing after all yeah!?
-winks- after the bbq, all of us went to the park there to sit and chit chat, supposedly to wait for the sunrise. but then, our legs were getting soo itchy cos of the stupid mosquitoes, we couldnt stand it any longer, so we make our way back to the chalet. sheryl, wenhua and jiafang went to bed after tat. i tried to slp, but cant. charlene too! she was like sitting on ta bed playing with her phone. so sian to slp when in a chalet man. so me, charlene, kang ming and addy went out again. we sat by the sea, toking & singing out hearts out like nobody's business. it's soo relaxing! and did i mention tat our ms charlene lee was feeling so
HIGH thru out the night?! haha...she jux couldnt stay still for a moment.
-lolx-
it feels so gd to have ur frens and buddies arnd you, sitting by the sea and sharing each others' thoughts, jux having some light moments.
the four of us headed back to chalet at arnd 6am for some rest cos the sky looked like it's gonna rain soon.
-yawnz- kangming and i slept on the floor and its so damn freaking cold i tell u!
-brrr- we tossed and turned, but still we managed some slp.
-winks- all of us woke up arnd 10am the next morning and started packing up. it was only then we realised tat there were soo much food and stuffs still left over! so bo bian, each of us took home some. i took home some cup noodles and crab sticks while poor charlene took home all the tissue rolls and utensils! she looked so funny carrying the big plastic bag u noe, like some auntie or sth.
-cant stop laughing!- and weiliang took home a pack of tapioca! all of us were like
OMG! cos he was swinging the bag to and fro so dangerously tat it seems like anytime the tapioca could fly out of ta bag! -lolx-
the chalet was sooo fun! i'll like to have more of tis kind of outing pls!!!
-winks-
finally my blogging mood is back again...
Friday, May 07, 2004
one fine day i'd let it known
tat im not such a kind soul for all to scold
in life, things don't always goes your way.
i must admit tat in life, things more often than not, dun goes our way. they usually goes by the other. we dun usually get those things we want, but sometimes we ended up having another as its substitute. actually tat's not too bad either ritez? at least we get something yeah. aniwae, im not complaining or watever, but jux an attempt to bring myself back to reality world.
sometimes when we couldnt get hold of those things we want or achieve those aims we had, we would jux go on to blame the whole world for the failure. and of course, sometimes, we blame ourselves too, for being useless or wat nots. but come to tink of it again, it's abit ironical, dun you tink so? why are we always trying to aim for the wat-seems-impossibles and hurt our ourselves in the end? sounds funny to you? tink carefully before you start laughing at the statement...cos most prob you'll find yourself falling into that category too...
"The things you should do are often the ones you do not want to do but must do."
ever had the experience whereby you wished to do tat particular thing but ended up doing another cos you've got obligations and commitments to stand by? it's always the case. sometimes we unknowingly got ourselves tied down by commitments and promises, which forbid us from doing things tat we like or want to do. life is so full of twists and turns, so full of unexpected circumstances. tat's probably why we usually dun have much say over the things we do or watever tat comes along. well, though we might not have all, we can still have some...and pls be contented with it. for asking for more will only pull you further away from real happiness.
A tribute to my dearie sister Shiqi,
today's date is
7th of May and the time on my screen now is 1.20am. 18 years ago tis date, somewhere in a hospital in singapore, a little miracle begins its journey of life. tat little miracle is my sista, miss ng tzi khee (huang shiqi). and erm ya, she's a human, of course! tis miracle have since embarked on her journey and has now becomes a
-ahem- beautiful, always-so-caring and sweet
-scratches head- lady. ok, tis is getting abit ridiculous. i shall stop the craps here.
-lolx- my jie is actually as good as i've described
-dead serious- but sometimes she's like her nickname,
TURKEY. abit of blur and so on. erm and maybe, looks abit like the christmas best deal too! (the best deal here means turkey lah...wat else?!)
-tis time im really joking!- hahaha
-sticks out tougue- aniwae, happy 18th birthday to you sis! abit lao le horz...
-lolx- come, let me sing you a birthday song :
happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you,
happy brithday, happy birthday,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
usual babblings...
Monday, May 03, 2004
-sigh- my accounts exams is like...uhh..3 or 4 days from now? and im still sitting in front of my com and blogging like nobody's business. im sure im gonna fail if i carry on like this, but wat to do? i've got totally no mood fer studying. somebody help pls....
aniwae, im damn broke right now.
-cries- spent too much during the last month liaoz...all the KTVs and blah...
-shit!- should have controlled myself and save abit.
-smite heads- btw, alot of birthdays coming up and the first is my dearie sista,
shiqi de 18th birthday.
-head spining- tink i gotta stay on bread and butter tis month! so tat i can get her a decent gift! woohoo...so nice of me to go all the efforts ritez? haha...cos she's such a nice jiejie to me!!! and i thank god fer her ya.
-smiles- holidays cuming rite up and hopefully my dad will give me some allowance so tat i wun get to be a pauper during the holidays! -pray pray- oh ya, i might be going to malaysia during the holidays with frens...hopefully our plan works out and we'll go there to have a jolly good time yeah!
-woohoo- ok, i sounded like it's already the holidays. but the cruel fact is still in my mind k, MY ACCOUNTS IS NOT YET OVER, IT'S COMING SOON!!! oh wth!
-faint-
