Monday, September 27, 2004
well i've busy these days with projects and upcoming tests and exams. though honestly i haven find anytime yet fer some serious studying.
0_0! shall force myself to study soon. i must! anyway, was checking my emails jux now and i came across a touching story on trust. tink its rather meaningful and the lesson behind it ought to be learn. anyhow, here it is:
-BE PATIENT-
This is a true story which happened in the States.
A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement,his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although
the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide.
~end~
the story got such a sad ending which could be prevented. yes? try thinking it tis way, if the father had kept his patience, he wouldnt go on to hammer his son's hands, the tradegy wun happens and ultimately he need not commit suicide out of guilt. most pple might agree to wat i said but few got it done. pple are jux so used to losing their patience so fast, tat they dun realised tat many things are lost during the process. sad isnt it? so my point is, why not we try to recall tis sad story the next time round when we're on the verge of losing our patience or when we starts to habour any slight thoughts of revenge? wouldnt tat makes us a better person, and definitely a nicer way out for the situation?
sometimes i find it rather amusing when we humans say how much we love tat person and yet at the time we try to hurt tat person's feeling with our stupid actions. like losing our patience or worst still, our temper. i tink the right way out is to think first before we act or lose our patience with someone we love.
things once damaged, can be fix or even buy a new one.
but once a heart breaks, it's impossible to see it perfect again
-zhutou-
way too often we fail to recognise the importance of us being abit more patient and being more forgiving. we jux flare up whenever we like it and we forget tat we neglected others' feelings as well. and also, we forget that ultimately forgiveness is greater than revenge.
rem people do make mistakes. in fact we're human beings, we have flaws, so we are allowed to make mistakes. thought it shouldnt be use as an excuse always.
:P jux bear tis in mind, actions are irreversible. things done cannot be undone. things we do in tat moment of rage might jux go on to haunt us forever. so why not pause fer awhile and ponder. and try to think before acting and be patient for godsake. we should forgive & forget, cos we need pple to do tat too when we make mistakes ourselves. agree? If you always try to judge people, you have no time to love them. get it?
;)
to forgive is to set ourselves free.
more often than not we tend to hate others fer wat they've done to us. but in the process of hating them, we forgot tat we're actually doin hurt to ourselves too. yes, we're suffering when we hate others. in simple, when we hate someone, it means we're remembering wat 'hurt' tat someone had inflicted on us. and when those 'hurt' keep on replaying in our minds, we get sadden and so on. it's kinda pathetic you see. it's like we're trying to inflict more hurt on ourselves instead. ok, tat sounds abit stupid too me. so here, shouldnt we jux forgive and forget and tat i assure you we'll have a much happier ending.
:)
Friday, September 24, 2004
projects. reports. presentations. and they goes on and on. it's becoming sorta vicious cycle to us students already. poor thing us. we're all goin crazy pulling hairs cos of these irritating assignments. and im no exception.
:(
free now. let me suffer no more.
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
in rwps class now. there's gonna be a test for tis coming friday. sigh. hop i'll be able to make it thru.
0_0 anyway i blogged yesterday actually, but the stupid blogger server failed on me so it comes out to nth in the end. bloody banana shitty hell.
O_o"
tests. projects. reports. equals to headaches + faints*
"Predictable" in The Chronicles of Life and Death
-Good Charlotte-
Something isn't right,
I can feel it again, feel it again.
This isn't the first time,
That you left me waiting.
Sad excuses and false hopes high,
I saw this coming, still I don't know why,
I let you in.
I knew it all along,
You're so predictable.
I knew something would go wrong... (Something's going wrong...)
So you don't have to call,
Or say anything at all.
You're so predictable... (So predictable...)
So take your empty words,
Your broken promises.
And all the time you stole,
Cause I am done with this.
I could give it away, give it away,
I'm doing everything I should've.
And now I'm making a change,
I'm living today.
I'm giving back what you gave me,
I don't need anything.
I knew it all along,
You're so predictable.
I knew something would go wrong... (Something's going wrong...)
So you don't have to call,
Or say anything at all.
You're so predictable... (So predictable...)
Now everywhere I go,
Everyone I meet,
Every time I try to fall in love,
They all want to know why I'm so broken.
Why I am I so cold,
Why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared?
What am I afraid of?
I don't even know, this story's never had an end.
I've been waiting,
I've been searching,
I've been hoping,
I've been dreaming you would come back,
But I know the ending of this story.
And you're never coming back,
Never...
Never, never, never, never...
Never, never, never, never...
Never, never, never, never...
I knew it all along,
You're so predictable.
I knew something would go wrong... (Something's going wrong...)
So you don't have to call,
Or say anything at all.
So predictable... (So predictable...)
Everywhere I go for the rest of my life,
Everyone I love, (So predictable...)
Everyone I care about,
They're all gonna want to know what's wrong with me
And I know what it is... (So predictable...)
What it is is right now.
Monday, September 20, 2004
it's breaktime again now. gonna have my TQM class later on. sigh. it's sucha boring module and i dun understand why the hell the school wants us to study it still. i tink the school ought to reconsider all our subjects and modules, yes? anyway, today's
CECILIA ANG SHIYI de
BIRTHDAY!!! Happy Birthday Gerl!!! Cheers!!! :P
Men do less than they ought, unless they do all they can
hmm wat can i say. the above quote says alot about one's personality. whether you really give ur best or you gave something which you thought was the best. sounds as if there's not much difference rite? but the actual thing is, it meant alot of differences. in life, there's a so called 'rule' which states tat we're supposed to do give try our very best fer each and every thing task assignment or watever tat comes upon or given to us. we're all supposed to throw in our best efforts, give 'em our very best shot. no? but at too many a times, most of us fail to do jux tat. couldnt blame us actually. cos we're jux humans. much too capable of making mistakes. we arent flawless, no? but then again, we should do wat we ought to and give our best for everything we do and try, i say TRY to make no mistakes.
give 'em your best, if not it doesnt count at all. -zhutou-
Friday, September 17, 2004
in common situations, people hate obstacles. more often than not they view them as tripping stones which are there to obstruct their way or basically to stop them from advancing further. but still, there are some rare situations whereby people appreciated the prescence of obstacles so very the much. these are the times when people actually found new hopes or findings from the meeting of obstacles itself. so, having obstacles in life doesnt sounds so bad as it may seems rite?
Nothing is Predestined. The Obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings. -Ralph Blum-
looking at the quote above, you cant help but agree with it cos it sounded so true. but how many of us actually have the courage or determination to jump over all the obstacles in front of us and leap into a new world of hope? well, sadly speaking, not many. maybe, jux maybe we may succeed at times cos the obstacles are deemed to be kinda small or insignificant. but for the major or sky high ones, it's like mission impossible. tat's practically why many gave up halfway thru always. which ultimately results in nothing much accomplished or done. simply a waste of time, yes?
0_0
the different beliefs is wat makes me different from you.
all of us have different beliefs, it's jux like we have different parents and so on. while some choose to believe in tat thing call
F.A.T.E, others believe in themselves and creating wat we call
M.I.R.A.C.L.E.S. nothing is impossible so i dun deny tat miracles do happen. and tracing back to the quote
"nothing is predestined", it gives further confirmation to wat i wrote jux before. so, if nothing is predestined, doesnt it means tat we're all given the chances to work out our own life? yes? and if we're doin jux tat right from when we're born or let's jux say from the point we began thinking quite maturely, why do we still have those unhappy times or worst situations taking place?
why. why. why. and wat amused me was tat you still hear people complaining tat times are difficult, life's treating them badly and wat nots. but do they ever reflect fer a moment tat it's actually their own work tat landed them in tat kinda situations? no, im certain tat they didnt. fer if they did, they'll realised tat their outcomes are cos of their mistakes and not due to life mistreating them, or even god's doing. if yes, it's cos they deserved it and they jolly well learn from their mistakes.
no matter the size, they still count.
one important learning point is tat our actions can very much affects the relevant outcomes in watever we do. like wat the chinese proverb says
"zhong gua de gua, zhong dou de dou" (you plant a melon seed, it'll grow into a melon; you plant a bean seed, it'll become a bean.) tat every decision or choice we make, every step we walk, everything we do will brings us to different endings or outcomes in da future. so, dun ever say your minimal action/word wun count, for the fact is as insignificant as they seems, it contributes to the overall picture still. :)
Thursday, September 16, 2004
finally handed up the rwps report before i went home jux now. and now my mind aint feeling as heavy as before. it feels lighter now, no?
today was a bad bad day fer me. sigh. i actually missed my step while walking and nearly rolled down the bloody stairs! 0_0! wth! real
SWAY lah! the gd thing was tat i didn rolled down and tat i didn fall on my butt or sth and most importantly i didn dirtied my new pure milk shirt! ok, tat was wat they called
"the best out of da worst situation" rite?
0_o" anyway, azlin and company happens to witness all these shit and azlin even starting laughing at me the moment she knows i fell! bloody banana you. i wana box you liao. but cos im sucha nice fren, i shant box you. im forgiving ya see?
*lolx* and azlin was teasing me tat it must be the retribution of me forgeting to attend the ssm group meeting in da morning!
0_0! wth! like tat de meh?! so, was limping all da way during da break time, but lucky me my ankle recovered super fast! before school end i was able to walk as per normal already! hee tink its cos i didn sprain it or sth. oh, realised i haven done my TQM project yet. sigh. so many reports to write. can faint anytime really, yes?
0_o"
When things are gettin' crazy
And you don't know
Where to start
Keep on believin', baby
Just be true to your heart
When all the world around you
It seems to fall apart
Keep on believin', baby
Just be true to your heart
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
am seriously tired. too many projects are
DUEing this week and the next. even more during the week after next. and those irritating tests and exams are squeezing themselves in da middle of them somemore. ok, now is
CAN DIE ALREADY. 0_0!
got the rwps report done draft halfway completed last nite. or make it tis morning. cos i bloody hell worked on it fer like from 8.30pm to 4am tis morning?!?! eyes nearly popped out, yes? anyway, got to school in noon to finish and touch up on tat, but i'd not passed it up yet. realised after printing it out tat i forgot to add in the page numbers and some other details.
(-_-") ok me dumb dumb yeah? yes. so, went to da teacher and he said hand it in tml. ok, tat's fine. only got to add in page numbers and do some slight adjustments tml. shall do them during break time.
:P
You took my heart away
When my whole world was grey
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You've become the meaning of my life
Friday, September 10, 2004
lost. agony. pain. failures. disappointments. heartbreaks.
there's no meaning in tis anymore.
im calling it quits.
all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life
Thursday, September 09, 2004
watched
anaconda:the hunt for the blood orchid yesterday with adel. it's such a thriller and the effects were damn great man! applaud pls everybody! and the part tat really wow! me was which samantha (jack's research assistant) actually use the parang and
kacha! cut of the anaconda's head when everybody else were screaming in fear (cos the anaconda got tis damn big body so it actually got itself stuck in tis hole or tunnel with its head sticking out trying to eat em' all up) ! wow! girl power! and plus cool plus brave also!
0_0
anaconda's casts: bill johnson (the handsome and brave boat captain)
tran (another cool guy who works with bill to lead the rest)
jack (the scientist who's frigging crazy over money)
gail (woman scientist who dun believe she'll get out of the place safely)
samantha (the brave one who chopped off anaconda's head)
cole (technical guru who's damn afraid of death and da snakes)
gordon (the mastermind of da orchid hunt but he's a gd guy afterall)
ben douglas (the horny doctor who has a liking for samantha)
the other thing about tis snake show is tat it truely brings out the real being in the characters. showing the rawest side of them.
gd or bad, you'll see it all when crisis strikes. pple used to say in difficult times you'll find your bestest or true buddy. how true. so dun be surprised to find friends who are on quite gd terms or even those on very gd terms with you to leave you in the lurch the very moment trouble comes knocking on ya door. tis is human nature. take it or leave it. it's hard to find the few who would actually stands side by side with you when the difficult times is here. if you happens to find one or few, pls do all you can to keep them safe yeah.
:P
talking about human nature in da show, there's tis guy, jack (the researcher and supposedly the leader of da team) who's so downright selfish! omg! really feel like giving him a tight slap. he puts profits in fronta everything, lives included even. imagine him leaving everybody else stranded on da island, in the danger of anaconda popping in anytime to visit them and he himself happily rowing the raft tat everybody built with sweat to go find the blood orchid! bloody banana sickening guy. come' on must admit tis point already -
money is the root of all evil! tis nescessity to us is actually the reason why jack left behind all his teammates to die. scary isnt it?
*shrugs* but luckily in da show, there's tis handsome boat captain called bill. wow man! he's so brave and manly. jumping into da waters to save gail (the scientist) from fierce jaws and fighting the big alligator with lone efforts. now how cool was tat ah! and wats more, his calm composure and thinking ability makes him a man of charmaristic.
0_0
overall, the advanture was gd. clever plot and excellent settings. plus, there's a monkey which adds funny elements to da show even. heh. anyway, watching the movie with adel makes it even more exciting cos she's forever covering her mouth and despite tat, i can still hear her screaming
VERY CLEARLY. LOUDLY. (-_-") haha. nice advantage to go!
:P
true hero imerges during the adverse times
friends...
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.
u noe, we can have tons and tons of friends out there, but then only a bunch of very gd friends and jux a mere handful of ultra gd buddies. and for the most of us, having a few soulmates means we're damn lucky already. cos some dun even have one. pathetic souls. cant be blamed cos soulmates are damn hard to find. it's like findig a person who has the same name as you on da streets. oh tat's very hard indeed. friends are often pple whom you click with and these friends very often affects your thinking and actions as they're the ones whom you're seeing every now and then. for some reason, the things you do or say, your mindsets, likes or dislikes, often comes into similarity with the friends arnd you have.
friends or friendships have an indefinite number of meanings. reason being it's not tat easy to define something that is both universal and unique. who do you actually consider as friends? A and B comes together once awhile to chitchat; C and D meeting each other everyday but there's jux HIs and BYEs exchanged, does all tat counts as friendships? are they consider as friends? well, it all depends.
ok, let's try to define friends my way. hmm say friends is not jux about saying HIs and BYEs to each other, it's more than tat. tat's fer sure. it's about being there always, to listen and understand. its also about appreciating all tat was done for you, and all tat the person is still doing for you. sometimes you might not feels my way, but to me friends are the most important factor tat makes you feels whole again. in fact they are usually the ones who's helping you with the putting back of the missing pieces of ur puzzle back together. and you should appreciate them for tat. but i dun deny the fact tat parents might be the other factor involving too.
:)
at cetain times, you might be annoyed by the fact tat you tink your friends dun understand you and your actions and words. or even tink tat they're not giving a heck about you. i noe, you feel a little hurt alright. but i advise you not to jump to any conclusion so soon. sometimes they might not understand why you did or said tat sth, but still you seldom hear them saying annoying words or even words of disencouragements rite? its not bcos they dun care or watever, its jux tat they're willing to lend you their support in watever you do. this is wat friends are truely meant for yeah. btw, they're not here to criticize you, but to help and cheer you on. although i must admit tat a little of criticisim may help you better along the way.
:P
I knew I could come to you when I was down,
'cause I knew you'd always be there
to pick me back up
and say everything will be ok.
Thursday, September 02, 2004
sigh. im in school now. break time. two whole hrs you noe! frigging long! simply waste of my time man. why not they be kind and take away the breaks and then carry on with the lessons so we students can go home earlier? wth. anyway, holidays officially starts on tis saturday, but then there's still projects projects and more projects! and then wats more, i still needa go to my grandma's place to help out. sigh. it's not holidays anymore isnt it?
:(
oh ya, one happy news to share! i bought stuffs yesterday! wahoo! one shirt from pure milk and one long sleeve from dunno wat FFOX...
*lolx* then, a better news, im gonna buy more stuffs during the holidays! let's see...erm...a new pair of shoes and then one polo tee.
*lolx* sigh. at tis stage im goin, im gonna announce bankcruptcy soon man! hah.
so, wun be blogging the next few days cos i'll be over at my grandma's place. sigh. no internet! i'll be missing my com, my msn and blah. craps.
Don't wanna go now
I wanna stay the night
Don't wanna go now
Don't ask me to walk away...
