Monday, November 29, 2004
every thing we do,
every word we spoke,
seems to be of different tune.
but you assured me,
that we're meant to be.
our hearts will beat together as one,
we'll live every moment together,
we share the same breath and beat.
now, the promises leak,
the fallen sand and the broken me.
i've come to realise how silly i've been.
all your promises are jux but sweet lies,
you've brokened me.
by zhutou. strictly copyrighted. ask permission for use and will kindly be offered. :)
Sunday, November 21, 2004
it's definitely easier for us to walk away from the mess we've created than to face them outright. how not responsible of us yea. but still, it's the easiest way out and many of us still see it as a good escapade. to say, walking away from all the troubles or mess may not be all bad. it may be a good thing at times too. as in, some things in life can be so complicated tat its best tat we leave them alone, rather than trying to resolve it cuz more often than not we ended up creating a bigger mess out of it.
Fear: the more you try to escape from it, the bigger it's shadow become -zhutou-
walking away may at times serves as a fuss-free escape opening fer many who do not have the courage to face their fears too. not tat they're cowards, but jux tat fears are always sky-high barriers of life and it takes more than jux ordinary courage and determination to overcome them. so, walking away seems a good deal here. when you walks away from it, means you're leaving it behind, full stop. ultimately, fears are men greatest enemy ya. but then again, if we keep on walking away from all our fears, we'll neva be able to overcome them and see the rainbow beyond. so despite tat fears are such difficult tests, and wat most of us commonly do is always to avoid or escape, i tink we'll still have to try gather our courage determination somehow someday and take our bestie shots at them. at least we make the efforts to try, no regrets.
:)
i made this bed
i choose to lie in it
live with my regrets
sleep with what i said
could this be the end
im standing on the edge
of every thing i wanted now
i was afraid
i was afraid
maybe im just scared
to face the things i fear
it's easier to
walk away from everything
separate my soul
with all the things we shared
im falling to pieces
now say a prayer for me (say a prayer for me)
when you go to bed (cuz)
im in need of your faith now
i was afraid
*if we could just re-set
and live in happiness
instead of our regets
we could salvage everything*
we dont have to walk away
pray for me now
im in need of faith
pray for me now im in need
Saturday, November 20, 2004
im tired.
am getting fatigue from all those working.
i need to take a break seriously.
:(
Monday, November 15, 2004
sacrifices are evitable in the process of finding fame for oneself...
fame comes with a heavy price tag. for which always seems to be invisible to most naked eyes. how true is tat. well, i supposed its true to some significant extent ya. theorically, its true, fame does comes with a price tag, a pretty heavy one to be exact. for fame, many sacrifice. yep. whether its time, pple, money or even precious friendships or relations, they're all part of the sacrificial ceremony. ok maybe tat sounds a little too harsh.
but anyhow, its almost common sense to everybody tat one has to put in great efforts to get their fame or in other words, you need to work fer tat fame you wan. so in the process you see yourself giving up other things in order to forward towards the
FAME goal. so now, it looks some sort of dealing, you trade time relations or any others fer the fame you wan. and one wonders why another could actually bring himself or herself down to sacrifice even the most treasured friendship in the world jux to exchange fer fame. is fame really really worth tat much? maybe yes, maybe not. but remember, fame may or may not last forever, it maybe jux be gone within days. by investing so much in one thing, and plus it's usually of great uncertainty, i dun tink its a good idea. reason simply being, it's investment at a disadvantage. but then again, despite the unclear and doubts of fame, many are still willing to give it a try. out of curiousity maybe? tis i'll let you guys to decide...
:)
Sunday, November 07, 2004
watched
sharktale tis noon after work. well, its awesome. the fishes were cute and all. and the main characters in the show were funny, emotional and truely brought out the liveliest side of theirs. did i mention i love tis cute kind shark called
lenny (i dunno if its spelt like tis)? oh, tis shark is helluva cute and surely got the kindest heart of all sharks i tell you and he's a vegetarian! how funny and cute is tat uh.
;) and ya i find the plot quite good too. as in the show seems to tell us some important message, like fame does comes with a heavy price tag and the pple who truely loves you wont mind your status and all. how great is tat yeah and it gotta be one word, inspiring. watching the show really sent some kinda immediate inspirations to me and i believe also to many who watched it and definitlely called fer some thoughts and maybe self-reflection too.
they say you're a nobody to them,
but that doesnt mean you're a nobody to us.
is being somebody really tat important? or is it true tat us humans are born to have tis idea in our minds tat we need to be a somebody in order to survive? well, i supposed not. being a nobody doesnt mean you cant survive and all; you can survive, you'll still live life as usual and am known a person to everybody else. as fer a somebody, the same applies too. not much difference in my eyes. perhaps the only difference is tat both individual live their lives in a different way. fer a somebody, it may be packed schedules all days long, with maybe little time fer themselves or loved ones, eat wear drives the best of all classes. but then fer a nobody, it may be jux a simple everyday-go-work-and-back-home schedule plus eat wear drives simply commonly. now note tis, a person driving a bmw may not be many times happier than a person driving a common honda or toyota. the price of the car doesnt mean anything more than the amount of their disposable incomes. the point here is tat the amount of money you earn or you have in your pockets doesnt equal to the amount of happiness you'll have. and you noe wat, the one driving the bmw might jux happens to be spending all his time earning bucks to support the car and eventually neglecting his loved ones. now tell me, the cost of having the bmw and compared with the cost of having time to spend with loved ones, which is greater? if you chose the first option, you're an absolute idiot. sorry fer the harsh treatment, but to me,
time you get to spend with ya loved ones is priceless. and i would, definitely, sacrifice any other things else in tis world fer tat time.
:)would you?
i gonna stop all tat trying.
am already tired of failing and all.
im outta here.
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
walking down the memory lane. how many things tat you'd perceived as right have you done? or rather, count the many wrong things tat you've done in the past, whether its on intention or not.
-waiting fer answers from you guys- ok, tat's alot i noe. hah. i made mistakes and done wrong things too. mostly unintentional ones fer you guys i hope. hah. you noe wat, doing wrongs aren't totally our fault, god made us together with flaws remember? hah. sounds more like an excuse yeah. but anyhow, we are made of blood and our hearts beats, tats why we noe tat remorseful word called
'regret' and sometimes we do felt like tat. tat's us humans, we feel.
;) we are regretful, though sadly speaking it might be during spurs of moment only.
0_0" but wait, im sure many of us arent tat bad lah okays. heehee. anyway, you noe how many of us actually agrees tat regrets are the worst things in life plus it usually takes quite a while fer us to get over it. but then it sounded contradicting the next moment when you see pple getting over their regrets so easily and sorts. are they trying to be carefree or wat. we say
regrets are the worst things in life, it's something you'd already done and when you turn back to catch a second glimpse of it, you realised wat you did was utterly wrong. tats when the sense of regret, feeling of guilt sets in.
to be realistic, we lived in such a hectic society. whereby our lives is almost all about rushing deadlines and getting prepared fer stuffs. ain't it true? so often we see students like us mugging fer exams, rushing our projects and homeworks all year round. ok, maybe wit the exceptions of some pple + during da holidays. and as fer adults, their standard usual rountines are dead boring. wake up-go work-finish work-go home slp and tis unhappening cycle goes on and on. how dead can tat kinda life be man. i wouldnt wan tat kinda lifestyle when i step into the working society. nope, definitely not.
-prays. i couldnt foresee tat in the future. yep. and i believe many of you sure agrees wit me ya. ok, so much on the hectic society, back to wat i wana say now. so i personally tinks tat tis might be the main reason why most of us tend to leave our regrets behind once and for all. we dont take the time off after the incident to reflect on wat we've done and wats actually wrong wit it. yes we dont do self reflection. or maybe we do, jux tat it's not enough. tats a very common habit of singaporeans indeed. and it's bad. cos when we dont reflect on our mistakes and the wrongs we've done, how can we improve ourselves in the correct way, or the best way then? when everybody knows tat the best way to learn is to reflect and learn from the mistakes we've made. how cliche.
we may be busy. yes we all are, i noe. but then surely we can take an hour or two off from our
'busy' schedules to actually sit down and tink of the past things we've seen, said and done. i believe tat would very much help us in the process of being a better person ya. anyway, self-reflections and stuffs are always considered as parts and parcels of our growing up. agree?
:)
exams are over. and the feeling of freedom is back once again. wait a minute, erm maybe not yet. cos im starting work the day after my last paper, which means im working from tml onwards. how sad can tat be yeah. but anyhyow, i wan the cash. so ya. anyway, the hrm paper today sucks. it's like so frigging difficult, all da theories and quotings tat the questions ask fer seems like strangers to me. sigh. before the paper i was already feeling like so gonna fail fer it, and then after taking the paper, i felt worse. it's like i so confirm will fail. so sadded. hopefully the marker's will close one eye when marking my paper and kindly give me a pass fer it. seriously, jux a pass will do.
:)
angels by robbie williams
I sit and wait
does an angel contemplate my fate
and do they know
the places where we go
when we're grey and old
'cos I've been told
that salvation lets their wings unfold
so when I'm lying in my bed
thoughts running through my head
and I feel that love is dead
I'm loving angels instead
And through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I'm right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
when I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead
When I'm feeling weak
and my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
and I know I'll always be blessed with love
and as the feeling grows
she breathes flesh to my bones
and when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead
