Friday, January 12, 2007
you know how people used to say that its okay to make others angry sometimes, but never make them feel disappointed. cos thats when they will start to lose hope, get less interested in trying and eventually give up. its gonna be the last step anyone ever want to take.
seriously, im beginning to doubt.
Monday, January 08, 2007
sometimes in a feat of moment, you do something really stupid. and when you finally recover from it, everything else may be a little too late.i was really tired. very tired. imagine getting back home two days in a row during the early wee hours of 5am and slept like only 3 hours for the past 48 hours. i've got driving on sunday morning and it turned out to be really shitty. i was so tired that my brain was not functioning properly at all. it was slow, cant take instructions and totally screwed up. i think my instructor was really kind to have not really blasted at my scary performance. and so yesterday after the lesson was my precious day of sleep, i thought. but it turn out to be worst then ever. i had calls like at every one hour interval and its really frustrating. so, that was it, the wire in my brain snapped. and i started blasting at people. i dont know why. maybe sometimes when things got so hot in your head, you just dont know what you're doing anymore. but im guilty for it. and i know its my fault really.
is it too late to say sorry.
Friday, January 05, 2007
goodbye fruitful 2006. and say hello to exciting 2007.goodbye 2006, im abit late but well, still its better than never to have bid you at all. 2006 has been fruitful i must say, full of ups and downs, made a couple of serious decisions and sort of planted some ideas for my next step in life.
being a freshly graduated kid from polytechnic with a business diploma in march, the mind at the moment, was in a whirl. to work or to further my studies? not forgetting there are many other internal and external factors to consider about. time wise, money sense, personal satisfaction and future dreams. but well, things somehow just got into place, leading me to the studies option, and there i am studying a business degree from uol in sim. i thanked my dad here, for providing me with that education and the better future outlook. apart from that, i still chose to keep my part-time sentosa events sales job to upkeep my lifestyle, or rather to try earn a living. it may sound heavy on my small shoulders, to juggle both work and studies, and most importantly to keep the right balance between them or other life or social factors. in addition, im learning to drive too. many commitments and only one life, its never easy, always. but why not the try? you'll never know how things will turns out to be if you never even have the guts to try. guess life is all about making choices, taking risks, experimenting with the outcomes and lastly, learning the lessons. and then again, one look on the streets and you'll know many of us are doing the same too. also, mindwise, its definitely much peace and definitely greater satisfaction spending your own hardearned dollars and coins.
relationships (including friendships and others) wise, i think i may have let some people down or some others may have let me down. but then again, we all grow through these times, dont we? we may hurt others, got hurt by others in the process, but at the end of the day, we'll somehow get to understand things and people better, learn to look from the other side of the pond and earned some good lessons at the back of our minds. sometimes, timing and other relevant factors play the parts, and just like the old saying goes, its always better to leave things to natural and perhaps the we-all-like-to-mention "fate".
and now, goodbye 2006.hello 2007.started the new year with a bang at siloso beach party, with a couple of best friends and buddies, along with well wishes from dozens of friends and peeps over the phone and smses. the party wasnt really that high but i guess its the really company that counts. last meal of the year 2006 at trapizza with us sharing some nice pizzas, heart-warming reflecting session with mates. followed on with crazy photo sessions, foam partying, music dancing, indian pokers and silly forfeits in the early hours of new year's day. all fun and real enjoyment. simple moments are the best, i still believe. finally, ending this entry with best wishes for all the people i know and may everybody on the earth live with smiles on their face everyday.
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